This post shouldn’t exist. I don’t know exactly why I quit my job.  I’m able to give you reasons and answers and excuses about why I wanted to (then needed to) leave my job, but it still doesn’t make sense to me, fully.  Regardless, here are the three main reasons I bolted from a good paying job in a growing industry without a new job or a clue about my future.

I didn’t enjoy the work.  I felt out-of-place among colleagues because I hated talking about work as though I found it interesting.  I wasn’t able to step up as a leader and a self-starter and it was the type of place where you needed to be self-directed and self-motivated.  I was neither.

I hated working in an office. I felt like it was more important for me to be there 40 hours a week than it was for me to produce high-quality work.  I just resented that so much energy was spent on arriving at 9:00 when it didn’t matter.  I hardly had any interaction with my colleagues on most days.  I could easily do the job from home.  I just felt imprisoned in my office.

I wasn’t working hard.  This was the worst part. I was getting the work done and my bosses were satisfied, but I wasn’t engaged.  completely passionless. It became just a job for me.  It was a good job and I liked the people, but (like Tampa 8 years before), I just didn’t see myself there.  I felt I didn’t belong.  This job went with a life that I wasn’t interested in.  I was trying to live in someone else’s shoes.  Or shoes that were once mine when I wanted this type of work, but no longer fit.

So I quit.  And now I’m unemployed and starting a business and unsure of what I’ll do next…and freaked out and excited at the same time.